Woah. I havent been here for quite some time huh. Guess i was busy. With what you may ask, LIFE.
Happiness was just a few months and the rest, plenty of downs for me. But hopefully all of that is over because i found a new perspective towards everything.
Love for example: No one can truly love you but yourself. Once you do, nothing really matters. I was dumb enough to put Mr Handsome on my mind like 24/7. But it's all over now. Though he is still on my mind sometimes, but it's because it's a living proof of what i SHOULD overcome. He acts as if he really misses me, but i know everything. I'm not going to be so caught up in that because the truth is, when i was going through the toughest time, guess what, he wasn't there. no one was. I was strong enough to get through all the bullshit that was going on by myself. So yeah. Kudos for me.
Friends: They only need you to hang. No deep stuff. So, i've decided to keep everything to myself. Eventhough it's not good, but i have to, in order for me to avoid all the bullshit that they would say because they dont know me well enough to say anything. So yeah. I'm all on my own.
Studies: For now, i feel like giving up. But the motivation that keeps me going is, every man for himself. If i graduate with a degree, it will be my own. With no help from others but my strong determination to succeed. So i will succeed. Nothing or no one can bring me down because i am going to get my degree, get a job, and finally get out of everybody's hair and live my life according to my own expectations.
Problems like not having a car will never bother me again. I can survive without having a car. Those are just things. If i just focus on getting myself on the right track, i can definitely succeed in all kinds of terms. Probably end up being a successful independent woman. That I WILL.
Truth be told, yes i do feel lonely sometimes. But that is what keeps me going. Achieve everything i could possibly go for, and finally be proud of who i am. After all, man will end up alone in their grave right? So yeah. Positive thoughts.
Till next time =)
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