Honestly, if I was still in school and I was given the chance to meet the present me, I would definitely bitch slap her this instant. I am not happy with what I have become. I'm a totally different person. Like TOTALLY. Let's start with the basic things shall we? Music per say, is something I take very seriously. I used to be so into Classical singers like Nat King Cole, George Michael, Eric Clapton, Elton John, Ray Charles and so many more. I even fought with my ex back then about these singers. How I perceive them shows that I am unique, I dont follow any trends, and I love the way I am, and if someone were to fall for me, they would accept me the way I am including the songs that I listened to. But the present me? All she thinks about is dance music and having fun. When I really think about it, dance music is fun but it never really connects with me. You may say that I'm culture shocked, I can even admit that for myself, but now, I just feel like getting rid of the present me and go back to the old me that Zelfann said was fun. The original me. The one who stays at home and find things to cook at home and enjoy what I used to love.
I spent my saturday night at Starbucks Jaya One P.J with my sister and looked around the bars they have there and the songs that they play. One of the bars, played almost ALL my favourite songs back then. And in an instant, I am back to falling for them. Now, I just feel like chilling at that kind of places and enjoy the music rather than going out dancing. It turns out, Mr handsome kind of have the same interest as me. So, I wouldnt mind being the old me again.
I've thought about changing myself countless times, but now, I guess I'm changing for good. Accepting the fact that I can be happy by being only me and not pretending to fit in with other people. I guess I needed this all these while.
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