Thank you baby

This is for somebody really special in my life.

I am at lost for words when describing how I feel towards other people eversince I found out that my previous boyfriend cheated on me. I had a rebound guy, and after that I just feel like screwing guys around for once. I wanted to be the jack ass for at least once in my life. I never thought that I could open up to anyone else. As much as I want to be in love, I want to hurt people more because I, myself do not want to ever feel hurt again.

Things took a turn when Mr Handsome came into my life. Knowing his past, how he was towards other girls, I definitely thought he's the perfect guy to be my experiment of me being a jack ass. It was hard, when I realized that I had feelings for him.

It was hard for me to admit my feelings but as soon as we first hang out, I was willing to admit to myself that I will not turn down a chance for me to be happy. Mr handsome is the end to my every day. We don't text constantly, but I know that I need to at least hear his voice at the end of the day. Next thing I know, I am falling for him. I was able to say the words that had a huge impact on me. You know when people say, "when you smile alone, that means you really mean it", well yeah, I'm going through that. I cant help but to feel butterflies, smiling like I dont have a care in the world, and most importantly when he texts me. Any time of the day, it will always make me smile.

So to Mr Handsome, thank you. I'm falling head over heels for you and you make me feel like I'm the luckiest person alive. You really mean a lot to me. You know it was hard for me to even hear the word, but now, all I can say is that I love you baby. I really do. Thank you for making me believe in love again (although I still think it's a bit cheesy to say out loud). But YES, i am in love with you.