When your WHOLE ife is portrayed by a stranger, it changes you in so many unthinkable ways. I don't know how I feel. I don't what to do. I just feel like all the things i did in the past is something I could never imagine doing again.
Maybe this is a good thing. When people say, everything happens for a reason, now i know what they mean. There will always be a reason why things happen unexpectedly. We, as Muslims, are being watched in every single thing that we do. But we tend to forget that. Especially when we're having fun.
The bad side of the story is that, whatever bad choices i did in life, hoping that no one would find out, I was wrong. My whole life story was out last night. I'm a disappointment to all. There's nothing else that I can do but to change myself and repent. This is all still new to me. I'm still trying to accept this. And when my head is clear, I will then make the decision that will entirely change who I was. I hope that the people around me could accept the change no matter how big it is. But if they don't I know i'm not meant to be with them. And that's a loss.
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